Abandonment Issues

I wanna be the one you call when you're lonely
I wanna take up every inch of your mind when you can't fall asleep
I want you to come over and hold me, at least twice a week
And I wanna never see it coming!

Oh g-d, holding this in won't help
But what if I tell you and then
You decide I'm still more trouble
Than all of this is worth to you?

I wanna be a different feeling than anything you've ever felt
Might be my aquarius tendencies, or might be that that's you to me
I wanna be comfy for ya, the way that I used to be
And I wanna know what you're thinking

Oh g-d, holding this in won't help
But what if I tell you and then
You decide I'm still more trouble
Than all of this is worth to you?

Oh g-d, is holding this in a mistake?
The same kind that I used to make?
Or is it growth to know
This problem is mine to solve, not yours?

Every night, my ringtone's on high
Because a month ago you texted in the middle of the night
Sometimes I wonder, if I did that too
Would it ever play out the way it always will with you?
Because I think you know that I
Am always waiting

Eventually, I can figure out
That I'm reading into situations, words imagined in your mouth
One day I hope I can learn & grow enough
That knowing I made it up means it doesn't still hurt me so much
But for now, I'll keep cryin all night
Making up why you might hate me

Crazy