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I feel so numb
No more pain
No more voices telling me I'm insane
Have I ever felt this way before
It seems like I've nothing to account for
But all of the sudden
A jolt strucks to me
It feels like I'm falling
Out my body
Has it really come to an end
Seems like my time has come to repent
Unspeakable horrors lay upon my eyes
I feel like there's no time
Death and gore has left me desensitised
Like an inescapable maze
The nightmare never ends
It's just a feeling that you cannot comprehend
I must prove myself
And overcome this fear
Endure this hell
For he is near
I must prove myself
And keep on going
Can't become a victim to the unknowing
Forever
I've been in this place
Will it ever change
Stronger
I have become and learned to embrace
Evil that's been thrown to crush my mind and soul
Will I ever know
All the wicked things that want to take control
What more do you want from me
Can't you see that I've repent
How could I not see
I only did as you command
Must prove myself
And overcome this fear
Endure this hell
For he is near
I must prove myself
And keep on going
Can't become a victim to the unknowing

I feel stronger now
Ready for him
This feeling has been absent for so long
I feel cleansed
Free from sin
But I feel that his presence is gone

Deceive
Lie
Misguide
Cheat

Why do you deceive
Lie, misguide and cheat
Why did you go
You were meant to help me grow

Now that I'm all alone left with my own thoughts
I must accept
That it's up to me
To fill this empty part
I must not falter to my old ways of living
I can't help but think
I need to change to be forgiven
I have proven myself
And overcome this fear
Endured all this hell
Now he is not here
I have proven myself
So I'll keep on going
Can't become a victim to the unknowing
I've faced my fears
I am complete
But is this true
Or my own deceit