To Be In Love

I've been working on myself
Hoping I don't mess it up
I am focused on my health
Know I should have some self love
But there's something that I want more than anything

I've been feeling blue every time we talk
Cause you told me 'bout the news that you really like someone
I just smiled as your eyes lit up
But inside I wondered when is it my turn

I don't know what it's like to be in love
When you've had a bad day, do they cheer you up
Then laugh until the night time?
Oh is that what love feels like?
Is each other a safe place you can go?
When the world's feeling heavy, too much to hold
Oh you don't have to do it yourself
Is it nice to have somebody help?
I don't know

I wonder if it's anything like the movie show
I know it's fake, but why is it so unrealistic to have something great
I refuse to believe that kind of love doesn't exist
I don't wanna settle for anything less and it's frustrating
I'm jealous of those who have someone, they look so happy
World's crumbling at my feet and there's nobody who can catch me
I crave a deep kinda connection
I admire the way you're laughing
Looks so wonderful to be accepted just as you are, the way that it's meant to be
Everyone should have somebody, their other half
Always there to hold your hand if you crash
Is it too much to ask, I'm just wondering
It seems pretty cool to be in your shoes
I've been watching you from a distance
Talk to my future self, wave her over like look did you ever get this

I don't know what it's like to be in love
When you've had a bad day, do they cheer you up
Then laugh until the night time?
Oh is that what love feels like?
Is each other a safe place you can go?
When the world's feeling heavy, too much to hold
Oh you don't have to do it yourself
Is it nice to have somebody help?
I don't know
I don't know