Ghost In My Room II

I don't know if I can take this pain anymore
I'm alone in our bed looking at the spot you would lay
and I'm gripping the pillow tight
Tears are falling from my eyes
Wishing you were here tonight
Wishing I was holding you tight
Sleepless nights, I'm thinking of what I could say
Praying hoping you would stay
But the days grow gloomy and grey
And the moon has gone away
The same way you did when things weren't okay
And it's myself to blame
And It's my pain to take
I brought shame on my name
Played a very dangerous game
Now both of our hearts are in the state of decay

I thought i could be brave and tell you everything
Told me you felt betrayed, after I replayed everything
Damn, I looked two-faced
Instead of breaking your heart, I should have been buying you rose bouquets
But to me that was very cliche
Said it was the thought that counts, touché
Like on your birthday, I felt like I downplayed
Cause half of the stuff, you payed
You told me it was okay, we are a team and we've been together half a decade
We had fun in those Vegas arcades
Our getaways
Now I'm dreaming we are saying our vows while standing under a flowered archway