Red Lines

Everything is so loud
Only hear blaring sound
Curling up on the ground
Hold my ears and cry

Begging for some peace and quiet
Tortured by deafening silence
Longing for an end to the sound
Need to make the noises stop

So damn bright it hurts my eyes
I turn off the lamps but I still see light
And I cry to myself at night
Only way to make it stop is a way to die

Tried everything I can to shut off the lights
Smash the bulbs to pieces but they still just fucking shine
I can't eat or sleep at night
Don't know how much longer I can fight this fight

I can't do it anymore
I've been fighting for so long
I cannot find a way out
It's so bright and it's so loud

Fighting for my life for so many months
And I'm getting tired
I don't wanna do anymore of this
I just wanna be at peace
I don't wanna live, I don't wanna die
I just want it all to end
I just wanna feel like I even know
Who the fuck are my friends

Red ribbons stretch across my wrist
And purple splotches on my thighs and chest
Orange and blue fill my stomach
Twenty-seven hundred milligrams in my system
I'm tired of being in pain
And I fear I'm too far gone
Not sure anything could help me out
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Shiny eyes leak out into
The open canyons of my doom
Tears and sweat and blood infuse
To the elixir of my youth

I cannot get out of here
I'm constantly living in fear
I feel claustrophobic in an empty room
I'm sure, I know it's my doom

Pieces in my room
I already know my doom
Feeling hopeless more and more
Drain myself out on the floor

Red ribbons cover me
Kill the man I seem to be
I can't live until I die

No
No!

There's too much noise
In every direction it seems so loud
All around me noises blare
Even the quiet sounds of nature hurt my ears
Even in silence my thoughts are deafening

I want it to be quiet
I want to make the noise go away
I want to experience silence
I cover my ears but I still hear the noise
I can be at peace when I'm finally dead
I'm ready to give my ears a break

I wanted to be a better son
A better friend
A better man
I tried and tried and nothing worked
I feel there's only one thing left for me to try

I'm gonna take a nap now
A bit longer than my usual ones

I'm sorry

I love you

Goodbye.



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Writer(s): Gavin Konrath
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