Song of Healing

Did I pour you from a bottle?
Misquote you in the Bible?
Would the God I know consider those the same?
The bitterness has faded a little, but it's taking so long
In a solitary basement, I prayed for you to save him
Then got high enough to forget my name
I never found the savior when all the wrapping papers were gone

My phone's been tapped
Wires are crossed
Hazard lights just won't turn off
A television flickers and whispers the weather
Today is cold. so cold

Your warm embrace
In the form of a sedative: relinquish the day
Alarm clock is screaming
---GODDAMN YOU'RE HUNGOVER---
(...wake up... wake up... wake up...)

There's no shame in grieving
(...god knows i want to cry...)
The slow decay of our plans.

Is this evidence of madness?
I dive into rabbit holes where Alice just chose to get out
Recite my sad poetry through lipstick with a bittersweet voice
I let the mirror sing it back to me
His face is only apathy-
Behind the glass he bleeds with each word
I heard you sing from the garden

"...iloveyourface
...lightinyoureyes
...nightintoday
...nolampshade
...nolampshade
...iloveyourface
...lightinyoureyes
...nightintoday
...nolampshade
...nolampshade..."

Your warm embrace
This doorway, this precipice, this means to escape
To a reverie of lavender and blood-red ambrosia

There's no way I'm leaving
I just need a change of scenery