When I Was a Kid

My childhood sucks
My parents keep fights
What's the problem?
Something stupid that doesn't make sense
19, I left home
Only a penny in my pocket
"The kids aren't alright" is the only soundtrack
That sticks in my ears

I kill time producing music
Which makes me can play at 'Centro'
Thank you to 'Rama'
That introduced me to fruity loops
That was my second gig,
Being a DJ, and kicked out after
Because I add some heaviest fucking riff
At every drops they wait

And their ears bleeding
I screamed my pain with distortion
I don't need any of your thoughts
I just want to release the demon inside
I'm not sorry to do that
I'm satisfied instead
Compare this to what happened when I was a kid
That was the best poem ever I was wrote

My life is fucked
Bring my childhood memories
What's the problem?
Something stupid that doesn't make sense
20 I'm on the street
I'm a fan of my friend's band
They ask me to fill some riffs in their song
Oh, I'm down

Watch me now on the stage
Playing punk rock at 'Dejavu'
Sometimes my finger slipped from the sharp
Down onto the false minor, hella shame
Thanks to 'Dilla' to give me some trust
To record the Demo and EP
But when it was released
I choose to leave the band

I know what it feels like
Something core has left a line
But I need my time to be alone
This demon is taking over and over
I'm not sorry to do that
I'm satisfied instead
Compare this to what happened when I was a kid
This is the emo song ever I've been wrote

I hit rock bottom
Brutally
Turtles on the deck
Dying slowly
Fuck both trees
That never grew up
Always yelled at me
In a slow-mo

This parasite
Grows inside
With thunder and storm
Kill my mental
I let myself drown
Fucking twice!
Always high tide
Pulls me back to the surface

Living a nightmare, I can't wake
It crushes me from the inside
And I'm healed enough
Thought I was getting better at handling it but I'm not
Is this the future that you taught me?
This hatred grows like a cancer
Maybe that's why I can't let it go
Because I have never been loved since I was a kid