Tedious + Bubbly

Depressive little kid
Feeling unenlighted
The trees are happy when i'm not
So i'll live vicariously through them
Nothing matters
A shitty situation's just a matter
Of time

I'm always bored
I'm just an ignorant kid
Inside a world that's much too big
I'm always holding hands
With the ghosts who wanna spend time
Burning down the house or committing Robin Hood crimes

There are orbs all around me
While I question my reality
I'm dysphoric and it loves me

And all their eyes are on me, lovely
Tedious and bubbly
And it's not in adoration
It's in quiet contemplation of myself

Do I want change or not?
Do I wanna make things better for myself
Or is it safe to stay in my own hell?

Do I need help?
When was it that I fell?
When was it when I felt that
Maybe I was missing something
From the narratives the tales around me tell

There are orbs all around me
While I question my reality
I'm dysphoric and it loves me
And all their eyes are on me, lovely
Tedious and bubbly
And it's not in adoration
It's in quiet contemplation of myself

And canaries give me soothing little melodies
I see small flashes of yellow in the corners of my eyes
And it's so easy to forget
That regrets just come and go
As the sun rises and it sets
Because there's so much that I'm really yet to know