I'm Gonna Thank Myself Later For Leaving You

Some day
I'm going to thank myself for leaving you
But right now
I'm hurting from the side effects
I don't want to break down
Suppressing emotions
I'm feeling iced out as the days go by
Lights go down
And I go home
I feel so alone
Alone

Do I just miss having someone to hold me
I wake up and you're not there anymore
I'm just so scared
I had a dream that you were still here but ooh
No baby you weren't here for me
Oh
You weren't here for me
So why the hell do I still miss you
I guess I just miss having someone to hold me

Some days I feel like I'm ready
Can I talk to someone new already
But my heart still feels so big and heavy
Told you I won't care seeing you with someone new and pretty
Know sometimes I can get so petty
It's the human me can't say I'm perfect
I know that we're still young and learning
Can I just admit that
I'm still hurting
It's the self love piece that
I'm still working
Turn my phone back on
Just to stop
Myself from lurking on you

I know that right now
Things may not make sense
Emotions comprehending
Going round and round and round
Least I know that I can breathe now
Count on me hold myself down
You'll miss me
When I'm gone
When I'm gone
When I'm gone
When I'm gone

Do I just miss having someone to hold me
I know you're going to miss me
I wake up and you're not there anymore
Oh babe
I'm just so scared
I had a dream that you were still here but ooh
No
No baby you weren't here for me
No you ain't
No you ain't
Oh
You weren't here for me
I wish you were
Wish you were
So why the hell do I still miss you
I guess I just miss having someone to hold me

Someone to hold me