Deep End

Jay Dior

Mediation the only thing that keeps me sane
Too many thoughts in my head that's fucking up my brain
It's funny when you boss up they say you like to change
When through everything, I was the one who stayed the same
I still remember all my vivid dreams
I was piss poor my heart wanted to scream
Hit my first lick when I was only fifteen
People around me I swear they tot them beams

Walking through the dirt in my TNs
They said will you bring me with you I said it depends
Are you really down to ride or are you pretend
When I'm drowning will you jump in the deep end
There was some points were depression took the lead
The only times in life where I felt defeat
Using exotics to take me out my misery
When in reality they were dragging me in more deep

Sometimes being quiet is loud enough
They said why you sad? You need to open up
I can't love no one else my heart broke enough
Fighting these drugs I need to sober up
Many time's in life I contemplated (oh no no)
Is it time to go or should I get faded (Get faded)
Asking god why my family ain't situated (oh no no)
So many questions so I got to praying
Trying to find out about the real world (Real world)
Wondering why does the truth hurt? (Truth hurt)
I'm just trying to reach my real worth (Real worth)
Trying to make it why my bro's aint spreading the word?
Are they fake or is it just me doing wrong? (I don't know)
Can they not feel the pain I put in every song? (let 'em know)
Maybe they don't see how my dreams can come along
But if you my bro you should back me even if I'm wrong (if I'm wrong)
Wrong or right, wrong or right
I thought you were down to ride, down to ride
By my side, by my side
I guess you always lied, always lied

Walking through the dirt in my TNs
They said will you bring me with you I said it depends
Are you really down to ride or are you pretend
When I'm drowning will you jump in the deep end
There was some points were depression took the lead
The only times in life where I felt defeat
Using exotics to take me out my misery
When in reality they were dragging me in more deep

How you say that you down for me, but you never come around?
Only call me when you need sum that's not what loves about
Where was you when I was down and I needed someone help
I just needed some love but there was no one around me
Surrounded by my pain I was drowning
Lonely at the bottom but God found me
Walking in my TNs up these mountains
Your fault that you lost me I kept it a thousand
So don't say nun
Gave you all my love how come to me you never gave none?
Only kept it real with you so don't even play dumb
Had to boss up now I got my Jays' on like Tatum
You a vulture for my success you was moving like a raven
Had to leave you in the pass you don't exist like a caveman
Only did negative so you got cut out of the equation
I peeped you was only around me if you could gain sum'
So don't miss me cause I don't care for you (No I don't)
I was the only one who was gon be there for you (Only one)
Don't show me love now 'cause that's so rare of you
You gon see me winning at the top I swear to you

Walking through the dirt in my TNs
They said will you bring me with you I said it depends
Are you really down to ride or are you pretend
When I'm drowning will you jump in the deep end
There was some points were depression took the lead
The only times in life where I felt defeat
Using exotics to take me out my misery
When in reality they were dragging me in more deep