You Could Never Understand

When you walked in through
Those jail room doors
I was shackled all in chains
I had treated life so poorly
Like it was all a game

I could see how much I'd hurt you
When they told you how much this time
You said your last goodbye

You used to rock me in your lap
And hold me oh so tight
You'd tell me all your childhood tales
And tuck me in at night

You'd race with me
Through grassy fields
And always let us tie

And you'd hold my hand
While I said my prayers
'Til the moon lit up the sky

I just want to see your smiling face
But I know it will never be the same
I've tried to do the best that I can
But I know you could never understand

As I sit here in this emptiness
I can picture oh so well
Countless empty needles
Hiding on that shelf

I never meant to go this far
Trust me I've been through hell
You looked at me in the eye
Said you thought that you could help

You never thought you'd lose me
But there's where you went wrong
I tried to resist and struggled
I simply wasn't strong

The more I used the more I hurt
And I just wanted to die
Now when I look into the mirror
I can't help but cry

I just want to see your smiling face
But I know it will never be the same
I've tried to do the best that I can
But I know you could never understand

But I know you could never understand