All I Know

All this time, all I know is
Giving in means given up
Say no to love, yes to the pain
The demons I host in my brain
Since seventeen, speak to me
Like everything is meant to be catastrophic

Summer goes and winter comes
Don't get too close, my walls stay up
You only reap, what you sow
Life goes on and you should know
If you never bleed, you'll never grow
I think I'm better off on my own
It's getting old, I have to go

Don't look my way
You'll have me losing it
Don't you know I can't stay?
It's hard enough as it is
Trouble's one choice away
I have a hard time with staying still
Go on and on with the chase
You know I live for thrill of it

My vice is co-dependency
My demons make it hard to breathe
So I brace myself for when they'll leave
And then I cry myself to sleep
Cause all this time, all I know is
Start the fire then watch it burn out

Sometimes the walls I call my friends
Feel like they are caving in
The roses that bloomed in my mind
What a shame I have to watch them die
Cause it's been a while and all I know is
Is losing means a lesson learned

Don't look my way
You'll have me losing it
Don't you know I can't stay?
It's hard enough as it is
Trouble's one choice away
I have a hard time with staying still
Go on and on with the chase
You know I live for thrill of it

All I know, all I know, all I know, all I know
Is lose your heart, lose your mind, lose yourself, lose all control

All I know, all I know, all I know, all I know
Is life goes on, you should know, if you never bleed, you'll never grow