Never Go Home

I can never go home
Because home was a lie
Shadows climb the walls inside
Never thought love was kind
Close my eyes, wondering why
I can't make everything stay black
Bathroom floor, water's running cold
You stand outside but I won't open the door

I still hesitate when you tell me you love me
I blamed myself when he stole my youth
I shatter like glass, blood all over your hands
And I don't see how, no I don't see how
You can want me like this

I can't bare my soul in a narcissistic world
But I've been hollowed out by the war
I made in my own mind
God I know how that darkness can hold
I've dug myself out of a few graves now
I'm so tired of being in control
I can't stop the shaking in my bones

I still hesitate when you tell me you love me
I blamed myself when he stole my youth
I shatter like glass, blood all over your hands
And I don't see how, no I don't see how
You can want me

And I'll be honest
About the way that I almost
Let them win

I still hesitate when you tell me you love me
I blamed myself when he stole my youth
Just like he said he would
I shatter like glass, blood all over your hands
And I don't see how, no I don't see how
No I don't see how, but show me how
You can love me like this