Breaking Point

I haven't been sleeping
My dreams have no meaning
My tongue has no feeling
Stiff drinks seem appealing
Dried lips just keep splitting
My eyelids stay heavy
My ears hear dull ringing
But my heart still keeps beating

I guess somewhere I lost the point
I never meant to raise my voice
Or get as angry as I did
Now you wont talk to me again
I thought I knew my breaking point
Until I lost control and gave you a choice
Took for granted all the time we spent
Now you won't see me the same way again

Explain till I digress
Defending my violence
With words that make no sense
And sweet talking nonsense
Away
With all of my bad decisions
I can't take any more of it

I guess somewhere I lost the point
I never meant to raise my voice
Or get as angry as I did
Now you wont talk to me again
I thought I knew my breaking point
Until I lost control and gave you a choice
Took for granted all the time we spent
Now you won't see me the same way again

Bye
So act like you weren't just out of your mind
You scream your head off to say you're fine
Talking to you is a waste of my time when I
Keep telling you there's nothing to hide
Still you act like I'm one of those guys
To turn my back on you when shits not right
Every talk we have turns into a fight so I'll
Just try to stay out of your sight

I'm still trying to find
the things I hold up inside
To keep me from losing my fucking mind
I'm still trying to hide
Behind the feeling that I'm
Not losing my mother fucking mind
Every time I try
To get ahead it feels like that I'm
Falling further behind
To the end of the line
Even though it's not like that I
Won't make it out of this alive

I guess somewhere I lost the point
I never meant to raise my voice
Or get as angry as I did
Now you wont talk to me again
I thought I knew my breaking point
Until I lost control and gave you a choice
Took for granted all the time we spent
Now you won't see me the same way again