Lord Forgive Me

(V. 1)
Every day I wake up, thankful for my life
Even through the bad times, I hope God can do me right
But at times I wonder why, when I look up to the sky
Is it all really worth it, when one day we all die
I can hope that one day, I'll be forgiven for my sins
But I repeat the same things over and over again
It's a neverending cycle and I never seem to learn
Cuz I'm stuck in a loop, I always crash and burn
A little bit of good, and yet a lot of bad
Always outweighs the positive karma that I've had
I'm waiting for an answer every recording session
Will this track or the next, cure clinical depression
Never know it til I try it, gotta let the demons out
But i smile outside, inside I just frown
Lord have mercy on this troubled soul of mine
Gotta keep my head up, maybe I'll be just fine

(V. 2)
Asking for forgiveness for the wrong that I was doing
I was drinking, smoking weed, never knew who I was screwing
Cross faded belligerent, then 3 hours of sleep
That's the type of shit you're dealt, with the company you keep
I was moving too fast, going down the wrong path
Thinking to myself, how long can this last
Imma end up in a ditch before I turn 25
Then I end up in a bitch, to forget about the why
Why I worry bout the thrill, and the spontaneity
Instead of laying low, praying to a deity
Cuz I grew up in the church, but keep straying from the cross
Even more to this day, with grandparents I lost
I try to keep in mind that they're watching over us
But life just ain't the same, we can't get enough love
So Lord forgive me for my sins, I keep doing the worst
To keep the memories at bay, so I don't have to feel the hurt

(V. 3)
I'm waiting for an answer, cuz I need to be forgiven
For the trouble that I've caused, for the life that I was living
Tried to turn every page, tried to flip every leaf
But it never seemed to work, I was praying for relief
Praying for the end, never try to survive
I was stuck on bad times, always thinking suicide
But for my daughters I kept strong, living with the fight
Til I held on for them, then I met the right wife
Now I keep my head high when my family's around
Cuz I never wanna show em that depression when I'm down
And given I have days where I shut down to cope
But it's better than ending it at the end of a rope
So every day's a new struggle, and I'm pushing right through
If someone like me can do it, so can you too
No matter how I'm living, I just gotta take a stand
Please Lord forgive me, cuz I'm just a man