Broken

(V. 1)
I sit here and I write, I'm struggling with the life
I wanna balance how I'm living with the wrong and the right
And it's never the light, I'm bringing it down to the dark
Hesitate with the fight, but steady writing from the heart
but I can love my art, and still battle with depression
All the ups and downs, I'm keeping everybody guessing
How I'm up one day, and to the next I'm down
Cuz everybody love my smile, but they address my frown
What can I do now? I've achieved my goals
I did what I had to do but never sold my soul
Although at times I feel, I can never escape
The greatness I desire, staring into my face

(V. 2)
It's a race to the finish, what's the fuss about
Living a mile a minute until your luck's run out
You can live with the doubts or you can take a stand
Fly by the seat of your pants or have a plan
The curtains are coming up on my life right now
Try to stay in the now, until I take my final bow
Cuz it's one big show, until it's time to go
So to unleash the pain I gotta do it with the flow
And I'm feeling inadequate, from the moment I awake
Gonna struggle through the day, but alas I wait
The doubts I have, I feel em creepin in
Gotta tell the depressive episode, I won't let you in

(V. 3)
My soul is stolen, I'm feeling lonely and broken
But these meds that I've been taking are the things that keep me going
Panic attacks, anxiety keeping me up at night
Every time I try to switch it up, they never get it right
So I go back to the only thing I know how to do
Drinking and ignoring all of my problems, who woulda knew
That I'd be just like my father even with the help of doctors
I can never break the cycle, so why do I even bother
Off my rocker's what they say when I walk into the clinic
If I wasn't scared to end it, I'd have already did it
But I'd never leave my family with the guilt of my pain
So I keep on living strained, with the darkness in my brain