Epiphany

I share the same blood as Emmett and Medgar
Our mamas prayed for us
So bless the protectors
When Black boys die the reaper collects us
Forget our trespasses and forgive our debtors

Like we not owed a fortune and fame
I was promised 40 acres in my grandfather's name
I got 30 years of pain and nigga that ain't the same
I got 20 in the classroom just writing my name

Like hold up
The angels saying slow up
It's instilled in you and nigga you about to blow up
Glow up
The crowds are singing your stuff
They sounding like the Heavens when they bowing to the GOAT

HALÉS
HALÉS
HALÉS
HALÉS

Holy water running down my back
Touches my spine and enters my skin
I thought that this water was supposed to cleanse my sins

Blowing smoke to forget that I'm dying
Getting lifted trying to fill my soul
In this world I created my heart beats unnaturally slow

I thought I was dead inside
The angels were singing goodnight
I know how my thoughts can run wild

You told me I was going to hell
Spoke down on me
You prayed I would fail
I'm having an epiphany
I Am STILL HOLY

Chasing another version of me
One that the people wanted to see
But I gotta move on
For Heaven's sake

Please don't tell me that I'm getting older
Cause I wish had the years all back
But I gotta move on
For my own sake

I thought I was dead inside
The angels were singing goodnight
I know how my thoughts can run wild

You told me I was going to hell
Spoke down on me
You prayed I would fail
I'm having an epiphany
I Am STILL HOLY

Ah Ah Ah
All I can do is pray that I
Pray that I
Ah Ah Ah
All I can do is pray that I make it to Heaven
I'm praying to Heaven
I'm praying to Heaven
And I'm asking God to let me in
Oh let me in

I'm praying that it's not in vain, Lord
I want my name in your book so I work hard
Will Heaven sound like the horns that we're all taught
Playing Hallelujah to the angels

I thought I was dead inside
The angels were singing goodnight
I know how my thoughts can run wild

His spirit has kept me alive
My angels are holding me tight
This water restoring my spine
I am STILL HOLY

Let it be known that I don't want no funeral for sadness
There is nothing to be sad for
I didn't live so loudly for y'all to be huddled in quiet corners
Praying and wishing that I was still here
That would make my living in vain

Tell the truth
Tell them that I was a warrior
Tell them that I fought for freedom
That I gave my life so others could be happy

Tell them that I came like a dragon
That I spit hot fire on microphones and left people's inner baggage sitting on their laps
Tell them that this was purposeful
That God sent me to be a mirror to them and an anchor to myself

But tell them that I floated
That the anchor wasn't strong enough for me
That I wasn't grounded to anything or anyone

Tell them that I was troubled
That there were voices in my head that I never spoke about
Tell them that my mind played tricks on me all day long
That I found no peace in myself
That my body shook every morning and trembled every night before bed

Tell them that God spoke to me in my own voice
Tell them that I needed hugs
That I was human

Tell them that I didn't understand how unconditional love verbally sounded right
Yet physically hurt

Tell them that I was passionate
That I loved with all of me
Tell them that my blood was tainted by the hands of wicked men with pitchforks and guiding lights

Tell them that I was never whole
That I pieced myself together with the broken glass from my daddy's police car
Tell them I want a casket just like my daddy's
One I ain't never seen

Tell them I get to see him
and hold him
And maybe that will settle the score with the boys on Earth
And he will remind me of how Holy I am
He will lift my head and tell me to never look down again
Because anything beneath me has been washed away by the River of Jordan

I am HOLY
I am STILL HOLY
I am STILL HOLY
I am STILL HOLY

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