Grizzly Wintergreen

Temporary light
I cut the blonde out of your hair
"Antisocialites"
Riding bikes and sharing breath

But then the sun choked
Broke in through my window
(are you still inside my head?)
Guess they never found the body in your riverbed

Footprints cover me like windows
I could never open
I'll always be made of wet cement

Fluorescents helped me forget
Felt so dark to be honest
Ego death, splintered august
Don't want to be anywhere

I am the video and radio star
Buried deep in the seats like cds in your car
I'm the last one to show
You're the first to go home
An intellectual cause i read "on the road" once

You're caught in between poverty and suicide
In this city, there's nothing left to gentrify
I know it feels like things won't get much better
I might agree but i'd wait with you forever

You make me feel like
I'm not there
Next time will be better
I'll see you downstairs

You're on the way
But i should've said no
Just turnaround
I'm not ready to go

It was the first time
I felt alone

I woke up in new york
Buried in spokane
And i'm glad we were there
And i'm glad we left it

And i still remember
Every single kitchen
And the way the air fell
As you looked for parking
And every room we slept in

If you wake as the ocean
Do your best to carry me away
Sleep it off in a big house
Watching the wallpaper, passing away

Anne, i always take too much
Cutting through fog, hope is pulling on clouds
When you talk and you're sleeping
Count the syllables coming out your mouth
Accidental haikus always come out

I dreamt of a fever
That could salt the roads and put the leaves back on the trees outside
It's been so hard to stay in touch with all my friends
Backlit again, like 35mm film
And when i finally dissolve
Become your darkroom

I walked right past you
Thought about the tattoo
I gave you back in april
Everything is dead now

My car was broken into
Took that one cassette tape
That i borrowed from you
Back when we first met

It's just forever
Eyes bright like diet sunshine
You can stay if you wanna
Held close like constant springtime

I dreamt of myself
Before realizing i was made of someone else
And so were you
Throw away all the dead flowers in your room
And rearrange the magazines i separated from their words
Consuming all the things that made you yourself

Can't ignore the weather
Hope you're feeling better
I know that october sits heavy on your shoulders

Cellar door behind me
Your house was bleeding ivy
Don't need to be stable
Just need to be able to see you

It's just forever
Eyes bright like diet sunshine
You can stay if you wanna
Held close like constant springtime

I am so sick of my life
And always thinking about death
Wait for house plants in the hallway to remind me
That nothing worth it is permanent
Come on jesse, it's time to leave
We can steal some bikes and go to the beach
We never have to sleep again
We're never waking up again

I want a grave that holds me down
Cause i'll be cutting through the mud
Every second spent away from you
Was summer death without the sunlight

I'm gonna be the air in every breath
I'm gonna be the air in every breath
I'm gonna be the air in every breath you take

And if you're sick of your life
Just stop thinking about death
It was the fall in philadelphia for the first time
When my name came through your lips

Come on jesse, it's time to go
You don't wanna be late for the basement show
We never have to sleep again
We're never waking up again