Ruining

Another weekend
With a reason
To party but I never
Found it appealing
Watching drinking
While I'm sinking
Tryna find the perfect moment to go
It's making small talk
In a headlock
Cuz my personality is radioactive
I'm a recluse
Letting it loose
For maybe the last time, maybe the last time

I'm getting too old
To keep pouring out red solo cups
I'll stay in control
So I'm not solo holding my hair up

I need a friend
But I don't have shit to give
I'm in my head
It's counterintuitive
I'll make excuses
Like I do it's who I am
Just ruining

I'm walking backwards
It's a hazard
I'm picking up the pace
And nobody sees me
Wearing glitter
God my ribs hurt
From laughing at myself
Swearing that it helps

I'm getting too old
To keep pouring out red solo cups
I'll stay in control
So I'm not solo holding my hair up

I need a friend
But I don't have shit to give
I'm in my head
It's counterintuitive
I'll make excuses
Like I do it's who I am
Just ruining
I'm back again
Like some kind of idiot
I'll disappoint
Then act like I'm new at it
I'll make excuses
Like I do it's who I am
Just ruining

I'm getting too old
I'll stay in control
I'm getting too old
I'm ready to go

Don't wanna rock the boat
I'll sink the ship
Be your anchor but the bad kind
And I lost hope
For relationships
At least loneliness is all mine
If I'm up late cause I can't sleep
You're sleeping soundly somewhere
If I'm the girl of your dreams
You're probably having a nightmare

I need a friend
But I don't have shit to give
I'm in my head
It's counterintuitive
I'll make excuses
Like I do it's who I am
Just ruining
I'm back again
Like some kind of idiot
I'll disappoint
Then act like I'm new at it
I'll make excuses
Like I do it's who I am
Just ruining

If I'm up late cause I can't sleep
You're sleeping soundly somewhere
If I'm the girl of your dreams
You're probably having a nightmare



Credits
Writer(s): Madeline Regent
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