Disguise

Always feel too much, too fast
If I love harder
Will I feel something back?
If I pull harder
Will you bite and lash?
What if I really listened
When you told me you were bad?

Up four days, pressure cracking
Lip service while you're laughing
Cursing me when I tried to save you
Hurting me with the love I gave you

Let you in, I was off of the oxy-tocin in my blood
Even stronger than poppies
Everything you did
You did it to spite me
You say you're gonna change
But it's fucking unlikely

48 hours for a one-word reply
I'm alone in my room
While your hands are on her thighs
I don't know how I was so surprised
Should've known I was only talking to your disguise

To your disguise
To your disguise

Crushing up pills, serotonin splash
Press send on panic in paragraphs
Blank pixels I am tracing
Electric waste erasing

Up four days, pressure cracking
Lip service while you're laughing
Cursing me when I tried to save you
Hurting me with the love I gave you

Let you in, I was off of the
Oxytocin in my blood
Even stronger than poppies
Everything you did,
You did it to spite me
You say you're gonna change
But it's fucking unlikely

48 hours for a one-word reply
I'm alone in my room
While your hands are on her thighs
I don't know how I was so surprised
Should've known I was only talking to your disguise

To your disguise
To your disguise

How could I be so goddamn stupid?
Kept my mouth shut
While you got abusive
Putting me down
Just to say I'm useless
Lied through your teeth
There are no excuses



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Writer(s): Gabriella Giangola
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