Seasonal Depression

Okay
I'm lying on the ground and I'm not making a sound
Is he dead or alive, will he ever come around
Cause I'm treading through the water, yeah I'm homeward bound
Under the shroud I'm really watching clouds
And I'm happy as can be until I'm not, do you feel me?
Flapping like a clam, comfortable who I am
Wondering if life will stop doing me dirty
Flirty and full of the lines but not this time
Giving up on the game, surrender into mine
I'm turtling and hurting all the ones who would raise me up
But I hate this stuff, and it's time to run
And it's fisticuffs and it's getting rough
And if you've had enough, time to talk it up
Time to back it up, put the money up front
And going all the way back to the beginning I've just given up

And I'm dying to seize the day
And I'm trying to be that way
And if only the world could slow its turn
I'd be the song you've always heard

Okay
Self-loathing tendencies, I'll take to the seas
And sail away, never regret the deeds
And the things I did trying to survive
And I'm still alive, despite the tries
And hospital cries, limited meals and spying eyes
Flashlights right in your face, when you're right on pace
For a good night's sleep and that's not okay
Are you safe? Are you thinking that you're gonna end it all
Stay on the ball and try to care at all
Be the one you wanted, now that you're tall
And sometimes we fall, but answer the call
Get on the horse and ride back to y'all
Before I stall and I start to maul
You with lyrics about depression and progressing into manic states of being
That's pressing, it's a lesson

And I'm dying to seize the day
And I'm trying to be that way
And if only the world could slow its turn
I'd be the song you've always heard

Sprawled out on the floor, do you know CPR
Do you know where you are, have you come this far
Time to gas up the car, time to heal the scars,
And gotta raise the bar, eliminate the harm,
And the thoughts they swarm, and it's all out war
And we're right on par, swinging so hard,
We've got a call to arms and it's repertoire
And I didn't even mean to ever take it this far

And I'm dying to seize the day
And I'm trying to be that way
And if only the world could slow its turn
I'd be the song you've always heard