Half-Hearted

Let me tell you how I really feel
Man I woke up feeling so well
Got me cheesing cheek to cheek
With a smile on my face
Not knowing which way to take
Should I stay up, way up and find his light
I know that god got my back I'm doing it right
So I'll stay up way up and find his light
I know that god got my back I'm doing it right

It can be a dark world when you feel lonely and out of place
Shut off from the anxiety
Twisting you off to space
Why do you always lie to me
Force me to runaway
It's like right when I needed you
I didn't mean to be the fool
You played like a fiddle so riddle me this bitch
What do you get when tricking someone into that love shit
Crushing their hopes and dreams
Destroying their self-esteem
Well, I've finally had enough and I know that I've had it rough
But I don't give up, I get up
I don't focus on the negatives
I focus on my purpose and shedding the light in all the kids
Who face the same decisions that devastate you so mentally
No medication saving me
Helping me is not an option see
I died a long time ago
My falling out geronimo
And then I thought about my bro
A drug addict bastard who's filled with hopeless disasters
And I don't mean to walk backwards
But see he left me here with nothing but scattered thoughts rushing faster
Back and forth, here we go again
Blaming me until the end
And I don't want to reenact or have to relive this again
When I'm the one who lost and suffers every single day
And you just walk around and act like you haven't ever been this way
But maybe I'm tripping and over-thinking this sentence
Oh did I mention my potential, credentials that aren't essential
The difference with me and you is
I gave a shit about you, but you just disconnected
Neglected facts of my perspective
But what the fuck did I expect when you left home all on your own
Wander off through the night-time not knowing which way to go
Why must you feel the need to just lie to me, I don't know
We'll be brothers until the end
But I'm sorry I had to go
You couldn't handle all the pressure to weather the storm right
You find out just you are when the going gets tough like
The bills are due soon
You watch the full moon
You start to wonder what might happen when everything starts to crumble
So you stumbled and tumbled into that bottle of booze
You started popping pills and stealing shit then flipping it too
I saw the police had done caught you last night, up on the news
To think that nothing lasts forever is just something you had choose
We tried our best with you and nothing else
You stole from me your fucking self
So make excuses, lie through your teeth until you can't speak
I cried, I begged, and pleaded to you
You saw me fall into my lowest defeat
I cried, I begged, and pleaded to you
You watch me fall into my lowest defeat
You lied and lied and lied to me
All for nothing now you're in too deep
Well since you in too deep
Just hear me out
My perspective is something different
Listen to me a minute
This only will take a second
See dad was the one who taught us what being a man should be
The difference between a child and working hard to succeed
He'd be proud of who you are if you just picked up the phone
You caused a lot of hurt and pain and I just need you to know
We tried to find a better way out, but it's starting close
I can't believe that you decided to give up on me now
I want to scream and tell you how bad that you fucked up your life
But that just doesn't seem important when you hate life right
I found that beauty lies within and that patience can be a virtue
Despite of all of our issues
I'm sorry for being hurtful

Let me tell you how I really feel
Man I woke up feeling so well
Got me cheesing cheek to cheek
With a smile on my face
Not knowing which way to take
Should I stay up, way up and find his light
I know that god got my back I'm doing it right
So I'll stay up way up and find his light
I know that god got my back I'm doing it right