Lost

A light rain falling reminds me of
Stars in a broken sky
Like cellophane stretched in the sun
A light that catches my eye
Caught in the Greyhound headlights
Like a chandelier of tears unknown
A phone rings, a voice speaks, an old friend says
I just want you to come back home

I cannot tell you where that home is
I do not know myself
I am lost

I skipped town when I was 17
She never got the chance to ask why
Or how could I leave her in such a bind
For greener pastures and bluer sky
And I've had some other friends you might call 'em
Though I never do
But I always wonder what he's like
Are his eyes brown of blue?

But I cannot tell you what those eyes are like
I do not know myself
They are lost to me

I've been trying to make my way
But its all uphill and there's no top
And I've tried to put distance between me and this demon
But he's always waiting at the next stop
And I can't settle down 'cause I can't settle down
And I can't settle down and I can't settle down
I've criss-crossed this whole damn country
Surrounded by land and about to drown

I don't think I need to tell you that I don't know how to swim
I don't think I need to tell you how much I'd like to see him
But I am lost

Showed up at the door one day
With a dozen roses and a teddy bear
Recalled how I'd left that day
And I turned around and ran from there
Thought it might fix itself in time
Sacrificed one stitch for nine
Months go by silent as cat's paws
Walls of hate built thick because I
And I can't settle down 'cause I can't settle down

If my own fears didn't bring me down
Then I could rise above the fray
I could even learn to stay
But you won't let me till I've learned to stay
I could be a good man
If I weren't so bad
I could learn to have a home
Like the one I could have had

But I cannot tell you where that home is
I do not know myself
I'm so lost

A light rain falling reminds me of
Stars in a broken sky
The stars guide me as I go on my way
My way to say goodbye.