Tell Me Again

It's been one year since I liked you
Since I said that, now I hate you
Cause you told me that you liked me
Got drunk with me; that was our debut

And I thought that I could do it
Just be honest like the cool kids
But since you did that, I can't do it
So I'll say that I'm so over it

Tell me again why would tell me that thing
About how you had feelings but just weren't ready
Show me again the vulnerable misfit
That couldn't bear the thought of telling the truth
You can't so I'll tell it to you

I helped you through mad shit
When you couldn't do it
Chronically ill disguised as an alcoholic
You carved in your arm
I told you that I had been there
But you didn't listen
Claimed vodka as your affair

So I said fuck it
And we took shots in the cold air
Told myself you'd be there
If I ever needed it
But would you have told me
Out of civility
Would you've had the courtesy
To just let me go

Tell me again why would tell me that thing
About how you had feelings but just weren't ready
Show me again the vulnerable misfit
That couldn't bear the thought of telling the truth

Will you tell me why you claimed you were shy
And then packed your bag
Too scared to look back
Too scared to be honest
Too scared of the truth
Too scared that I wouldn't accept shit from you

But if you could tell me what's on your mind
Open the door, sit me down, tell me why

"I'll tell you again, what I should've from the start
What I was afraid to say, so I left you in the dark
I wanted to love you but knew I couldn't do it right
So I led you on, left you stranded in the night"

Tell me again how you could mess with my head
And then flaunt your decision
Your words a scalpel, my heart the incision
Fuck if I meant I ever wanted to vent
You're an emotional wreck
That I won't waste my time with