Melancholy

Thought I was drunk, I sobered up (I don't know what time it is)
'Bout to roll another blunt (low fly but I honor this)
It's funny how they get amnesia
Could do the most for your loved ones and they still can't see ya

My cousin always hittin' my line
He askin' me for paper
He wanna be a rapper, he don't know this shit get deeper
Don't understand the craft or what it takes to be a leader
He blinded by the ice, you know the hype and all the reefer
I ask him "What's your message, what's your passion?
'Cause your lyrics sound like cappin'"
Always got your head out, takin' accountability for your actions

I be showin' up for people who don't show up for theyselves
I gotta stop doin' that, that shit be drainin' my health
And I don't do the small talk, spend most time by myself
Depressed for so long, I forgot how life really felt
Struggled with likin' myself since I was a kid
So when y'all give me all that energy
I'm feelin' that shit (that shit)
Let's go

Depression is a bitch, so I'm faded
And I don't really care what you sayin'
Am I still alive, am I dreamin'?
Somebody wake me up if they need me

Depression is a bitch, so I'm faded
And I don't really like what I'm thinkin'
Am I still alive, am I dreamin'?
Somebody wake me up if they need me

I've been off for some days, sleep it away
Hopin' for change, look up, it's no one to blame
Tryna find a light up at the end of the tunnel
The deeper I get, the more that I struggle

Sometimes I wonder who my pops is
And why I struggle with my own kids
Trials and tribulations of us grown kids
Love without conditions, and let's not talk about addictions
It runs in my family and I know I ain't missin'