No Cupids

Yea, sometimes love starts out a certain way
But at the end it's not what you really expect
It's real life, it ain't no Cupids

I love you so much but the truth
It's what we used to have
Got me questioning our purpose
Thinking bout the past
I'm trying to grasp
For a feeling that I can't find
So many years apart
I held you in my mind
Up on a pedestal
Almost angelic
But its the memories
That feel like relics
Chased you so much
That I missed out on my family
We used to be so close
You used to understand me
Now I'm just a ghost
In an empty home
Stay awake all night
Inside my thoughts I roam
I turn my back on any idea
Of what we had is gone
Even with you now
I still feel alone
The mirror show me
What I don't wanna see
That I'm really in a place
Where I shouldn't be
Reminders pop up on the phone
Almost daily
I don't think we can go back
To when you was my baby

Baby I'm so tired of the way you turn my words
Into deceptions and lies (no Cupid)
Don't misunderstand me when I try to speak my mind
Only saying what's in my heart (no Cupid)

Bullet to the head
Self inflected wound
Without you I feel like
I should never left the womb
When I wake
I feel like maybe I should die now
Sunny days feel
Even colder then chi town
My heart on my sleeve
I don't wanna cry now
Energy faded all I wanna do
Is lie down
All pain
Try to drink away your face
But no luck
Even case after case
I still see you
But you don't believe me
Accusations all the time
Don't make this shit easy
If I could deny you
When you try to see me
I wouldn't feel confused
And yes we'd be
On our way to resolutions
Instead of prosecutions
People think I'm crazy
Like I'm seein delusions
So distant
Even when you stay close
Just leave my heart on the track
With Teflon Vest and j. Ghost

Baby I'm so tired of the way you turn my words
Into deceptions and lies (no Cupid)
Don't misunderstand me when I try to speak my mind
Only saying what's in my heart (no Cupid)

Back of my mind
I'm thinking that I should just let go
Cause things ain't the same
As back then when I met you girl
They say time heals all
But how long till I receive that call
That says you are now ready to draw
The line in the sand
And forgive what I did
Feelin blind as man
Instead I feel dead
Never once blamed you
I wouldn't shame you
No way I'm perfect
I never claimed to
Be anything except a flawed soul
Day by day struggles
No stop all go
We coulda be something
We could have been dynamic
But you take me for granite
And I'm tired of it damn it
Twist what I say
Fishing for thangs
Coulda had the home
The kitchen and a ring
But it seems that
The crossroads passed
I'll love you for life
But I think we missed our chance

Baby I'm so tired of the way you turn my words
Into deceptions and lies (no Cupid)
Don't misunderstand me when I try to speak my mind
Only saying what's in my heart (no Cupid)



Credits
Writer(s): Darrel Juan Walton
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