Big Time

Just can't- I can't
I can't stop thinking, you know?
You know, I've held onto so much for so damn long
I just want some peace
I just want some peace
That's all, just a lil'

But all this pain inside me, can't ignore it anymore
I been dealin' with this silently, you can see it in my core
Most can see me up but never see me on the floor
And I used to doubt myself, but not anymore
Big time livin', what I'm dreamin' 'bout
Conquered all my demons, they all sleepin' now
And shout out to my day-ones 'cus they still be 'round
'Cus we stuck it through the ringer 'til we made it out

Look, I'm still wit' my brothers on this paper route
And Lord we finally winnin', please don't take me now
And I've been through the wringer, life can't shake me down
Took a lil' while to paint the picture that I'm paintin' now
And I've been runnin' from my pain that's right behind me
I'll never dodge it 'cus the scar always remind me
If I embrace it then my pain cannot define me
If you lookin' for who I was then you won't find me

Now, I've been changin' everyday
I was stuck up in my ways
Took a lil' time to balance all the thoughts up in my brain
Workin' for my future child, I ain't got no more time to waste
And tryin' to build somethin' when I die my kids can take

So big-time livin', what I'm dreamin' 'bout
Conquered all my demons, they all sleepin' now
And I've been through too much to let life break me now
You can place that weight up off my shoulders, it won't take me down

But all this pain inside me, can't ignore it anymore
I been dealin' with this silently, you can see it in my core
Most can see me up but never see me on the floor
And I used to doubt myself, but not anymore
Big time livin', what I'm dreamin' 'bout
Conquered all my demons, they all sleepin' now
And shout out to my day-ones 'cus they still be 'round
'Cus we stuck it through the ringer 'til we made it out

(Ay) And we gon' keep on goin', this is all we know
We clocked a couple miles but we got more to go
And I ain't saying this been easy, it's a rocky road
But I can't ever trade it for nothin', this is what I chose
So, I'ma let 'em know, all the pain I'ma it go
Know the scars used to hidin' but I'ma let 'em show
Nothin' to worry 'bout, lemme get my fan for that
And if they ever need me, let 'em know I'ma be there in a flash
Yeah, it's been a long time, callin' haters said I would be nothin'
But I know I'm here for somethin' so I'm on my way
And I can never be nothing besides me
I know bein' real is free, so all I got to say is

But all this pain inside me, can't ignore it anymore
I been dealin' with this silently, you can see it in my core
Most can see me up but never see me on the floor
And I used to doubt myself, but not anymore
Big time livin', what I'm dreamin' 'bout
Conquered all my demons, they all sleepin' now
And shout out to my day-ones 'cus they still be 'round
'Cus we stuck it with each other but we made it out