Oct. 17th 2014

Today, I can't wait to die, nothing for me in this life
No matter how hard I try, I can't do anything right
Yeah, and I'm all out of time (I'm all out of time)
It's too late to try (it's too late to try)
So baby, kill me slowly (slowly), however you like (however you like)
However you like (however you like)

Is this a dream? Got my hand on the handle
Perks in my bloodstream, I just took a handful
I don't remember how I got here
It doesn't matter how I got here
All I can see is the gun on the table
Fall on my face, call your phone while I'm able
I don't remember how I got here
But it doesn't matter how I got here

Flashbacks to days that I thought were repressed
I fucked up again, yeah, that's what I do best
Just trying to fill up this hole in my chest
But she don't understand what I mean by depressed

And I'd tell you I hated you if it were true
I'd tell you I loved you if you loved me too
But I'm on the edge now, I know it's too late
I already know, I was just a mistake

I can't wait to die, nothing for me in this life
No matter how hard I try, I can't do anything right
Yeah-yeah, and I'm all out of time, yeah, it's too late to try
So baby, kill me slowly

Yeah, yeah
I don't know how to put this in words, the way this burns
Silver lining is that I'm blessed with a curse
With this anger that I know I deserve
Or am I swerving on the people that I love
'Cause I'm 17 and already missed my turn?
And I didn't learn a thing from this
Except what it's like to be buzzing
With a trigger finger dying to scratch an itch

And I feel like such a bitch
Now, my girl is pissed because I'm back on the pharms
Singing love from her lips, and writing hate on her arms
So I say, "Fuck it, I'm done," and I try to get away
But I don't get very far, and there's nowhere to stay
And now I'm writing these bars, 'cause I've got so much to say
So my words will live on, even when I fade away

And I can't wait to die, nothing for me in this life
No matter how hard I try, I can't do anything right
It's all in my head, I think I'm better off dead
So, can you please tell me, why?