Blessings

Lock in yeah

I done had good moments that I loss I wish I could've stashed
I can't sit around and be a dummy for them i'll crash
Mixed emotions can't choose whether if i'm sad or i'm mad
Don't like to talk about my problems watched to many men get bashed
Watched a have not turn a 5 to 500 and brag
Saw someone show love to everyone who had it with his last
I done seen the smartest go retarted
I watched someone show love to everyone than turn out heartless
Seen Wayne work that made me wanna book session
Looked up to bro he lost his mind stared another direction
I couldn't find my way with having idols been counting on Gods will
I can tell you God did yes I know that God will
Can't go wasted waiting on the time i'll get to losing faith
Felt low forgot how amazing God is but still was choosing Grace
I chose my pathway to make the best out what I have
Hard to climb up from a barrel when you surrounded by the crabs
Had dream of being it but nightmares of me getting tagged
By bullets that made a couple homies dates that's in the past
Nothings beats a failure but a try i'm undefeated
When I try again the only time i'm cool with me repeating
Soon as everything ain't go as planned they dialed it down was sleeping
Busy fighting with insanity don't care about you leaving loss of reason

Surrounded by the real and fake they telling me i'm special
Sometimes it's difficult to hear the honesty truth
Underground on the come up hopefully y'all digging me
Was told my therapy was talent I embraced it in the booth
Put my aptitude to use but feel it wouldn't be enough
I pray when God make life easier for me it won't get back rough
I had the greatest dream of winning as a team but that was crushed
Pray I start living i'm strung out from surviving I had enough

Trench baby Beanie where I got my name from
Rent coming birthday money my mom saved some
I couldn't ask the hood for love they never gave none
Doing the right thing done got my cousin face one
Bah heard them sounds and I ran from them as a minor but i'm here
Amend with bro cause if we leave on the wrong note ima feel weird
Blessings often come as messages God sent a couple here
Goals to turn my life a positive with God he'll get me there

No i'm not where I want to be
But I thank God he tapped in because life was just confusing me
And Fridayy told me i'm next up but this one Thursday the devil almost ruined me
I done put a smile over emotions I was having when them people was abusing me
I'm dealing with feelings cause i'm older still a soldier pray to God that I stay true to me
So I been focus on my mental
Making new habits for these issues
I know through the grace of God that I'm gone get through
Should've had early intervention for my heart if I would've had known that this would be the aftermath
And lately I been seeing blessings clearly just a couple days ago I still staring at the past yeah yeah



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Writer(s): K'mari Brooks
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