Everything Happens For No Reason

Can't come back down to earth
Checked out and fear it's only getting worse
I try and manage to keep more reserved
But can't settle my nerves
I hate to concern
When I can't help but see it from the shore
Floating under the bridge
I've been sleeping on the floor to the hum of a fridge
And she leaves me nothing more when I've nothing to give
I'll make do
I'm used to this

And if the pain were heaven sent
For character development
Well I'd say that's a load of God damn shit
I'm worse than I have ever been

I Imagine
I can see
She calls my mother
I'm not breathing
Losing correlation between
How I feel and what life brings me

And I could waste half of my life
Wondering if I used it right
But what's the use when it was never mine
I've got to give it back sometime

And if the pain were heaven sent
For character development
Well I'd say that's a load of God damn shit
I'm worse than I have ever been

It's all an illusion
A crutch to keep us going
With a false sense of significance

I want a reason to be
To stick around
Caught up in keeping the peace I never found
I want a reason to be
To stick around
Caught up in keeping the peace I never found

I just don't understand
Just give me a reason
'Cause I just don't understand
I just don't understand