Beat That Made Me Cry

I'm not finding the words, communication is blurred
My anger's absurd or misdirected
Leaving feelings of rejection neglected
Long way from the love we were blessed with
Miles off from the fucks that we left with
Still the pain runs deep
Is it a message
I really hate that I
Make you think that I
Find no value in your place in my
Life when that's the opposite the truth, see I
Found more value in you, than I found in myself
So I depended on you, to bring it out of myself
So every minor transgression cut me deep to the core
And baby look, I ain't tryna hurt your feelings no more
I'm tryna say this shit clearly, look, I hope you hear me
Fuck, fuck, I hope you hear me, fuck, fuck

Writing this shit with tears in my eyes cause I
Know what I say in my anger be wild at times
Just know I'd spend my whole life tryna 'pologize
So you can know it's all love while I'm alive
Emergency abortion showed up with hate in my eyes
Broke up with you on your birthday, baby surprise
Still got the nerve to think that I'm one hell of a guy
Still got the nerve to think that I'm one hell of a guy

And this shit ain't over just like our love
Eternal twin flames burning all the toxic out
Tryna change our DNA learning to talk it out
Rather smoke and stay with you no more walking out
Take a ride and let the vibes from Sade play
With my hands on your thighs while you roll our J
If it get a little heated, we just hit cafe
And speak calmly over vino and some crème brûlée
Besides, ain't much more to it
If we say it's real love, we must go through it
At the end of the day, we prepared for the night
And on the other side of darkness it's a hell of a light
So baby, take my hands and follow my steps
Baby, I don't dance but this two step
Got me feeling so blessed, I must confess
I can't wait to get home and leave our sheets a mess