All Alone

Yo in a room full of people but honestly I can't see a single one
My eyes are clouded and it's just me by myself
I would shed more tears for you but I can't

I find myself surrounded by
More empty bottles than friends
This isolation has me trying
Crying through a pair of lens
Yeah I find myself alone again
All alone again with no one here
Yeah I find myself alone again
All alone again with no one near

Hold me like a child coz a man ain't supposed to cry
Tear drops ain't hiding this pain but I try
Look I been feeling this weight on my chest for a minute
Hey trying to recover but sometimes I can't spin it
Yeah this wave may feel crushing so I had to adapt
Coz baby if I didn't we'd still be trapped
I was just a child force to grow up quicker than most
Drug lord hand-me-down's excuse the blood on my clothes
Yeah a mismatch but I felt so fresh
Grape tees Dickie shorts and the runners with the mesh
But really I was second hand just like a lefty
Wasn't till I felt love that I felt wealthy
Aye really some love from people can be an illusion
Yeah so in this ignorance I came to this conclusion

I find myself surrounded by
More empty bottles than friends
This isolation has me trying
Crying through a pair of lens
Yeah I find myself alone again
All alone again with no one here
Yeah I find myself alone again
All alone again with no one near

Rub dirt in the wound of my soul and let it callous
Uh huh feeling just like Thanos looking for balance
Yeah except if I snap more than half will disappear
Guess it's what I get for trying to make my point clear
Got the stones to say it except finding the words is hard
And I'm no magician so I can't pull your right card
I heard your pops passed I couldn't pick up the phone
I'm sorry I said I would be there and left you alone
But I was going through it when you said our love was dead
Depression is a bitch and she ran it through my head
So I ran to drown my thoughts in another bottle
Coz I needed you to be there not just to coddle
Liquid courage got me thinking again
Yeah thinking that I can love myself again
That I don't need anybody else in the end
Anything to keep you right here my friend

I find myself surrounded by
More empty bottles than friends
This isolation has me trying
Crying through a pair of lens
Yeah I find myself alone again
All alone again with no one here
Yeah I find myself alone again
All alone again with no one near

If I'm crying I'm crying to myself coz it's just me
Right this alcohol should set me free
But instead I can feel the pull further down I go
If I could give you advice maybe take it slow
Coz the fast die young and the wise grow old
Loosing love got me numb I can't feel the cold
Lord I've lost so many my body physically hurts
Just when they going you take again and we feel worst
I'm buckling at the knees with tears that ain't really mine
But it's just me so I got to tell them I'll be fine
While the contents of this flask hugs me like a friend
Do you remember that text never hit send
Hey just the same you didn't pick up the phone
Hell even these bottles going to leave me alone