To Those I Have Forgotten

Sitting 'round on a bench
See my old friends at a park
I could shout and be known
But I feel lazy, so I'll stay
All of these things that meant something in the past
All of my lives that were never built to last
And all of my friends, they are somewhere having sex
I should just dream, but I'm so scared to relax

It's been a while since we met
"What you want for dinner?"
Vacant looks, an empty care
Now I feel crazy, "May I go? Or leave?"
"I just don't wanna be here!"

All of these dreams that remind me of my past
All of my words that have waded too fast
All of my friends, they're no longer in my memory
Nobody cares, or tries at all
And it's sad because I'm living on the wall
Where there's little time at all

Everyone will disappear when they're done
Soon enough this will repeat as my life goes on
Every time I see the sunrise I cry
All that is to be is nothing I try
Gone are all the things that once made me laugh
No one realises what makes them glad
Finding people isn't hard, not at all
But staying close to them is harder than drinking alone

I'm sorry to those that I left alone in here
I'm sorry my friend, for failing to take care of you
I'm sorry again, for ever loving him
I'm sorry, but I can never stop this fear

Imaginations try but most times we fall behind
My resignation spoils my insides and these feelings just die
I never once had friends that I could rely on until now
But as I grow they'll disappear into the storm of non-refunded time
Wherever I may go the same damn curse will follow me through
I'll learn to drive the street that leads me to this messy life
And walk across the tightrope
Cut it's strings and bind these fingers
That reach out for the comfort of the childhood I once had
Nobody is lucky enough to stay here
But I am so lucky to have even been there