Past Dealings

Sometimes I be pained on the pain of my past dealings
But if I ain't go through what I did I wouldn't have been healin'
Yeah
Aye

Sometimes I be pained on the pain of my past dealings
But if I ain't go through what I did I wouldn't have been healin'
If I ain't know this pain I wouldn't have been feelin'
If I had had what I didn't I wouldn't be speakin'

Oh, I hate me and all the things I know about me
But I can't take back what I've done and I've seen
So I can only flip it and grow up that's my routine
Oh, I hate me and all the things I know about me
But I can't take back what I've done and I've seen
So I can only flip it and grow up that's my routine

Can't take back what I've seen
Some points in my life I wish I could've intervened
I been wanted to scream
I been put up a screen
Since before fourteen
A horror scene, in my head but it caught up
Never thought that I'd be caught up
And this ain't all 'bout how I was brought up
Some events is unforeseen, some of it is in the genes
But if one thing's true, I can't change what be
So I ain't fine really, ain't got time to be silly
My soul guilty, chilly, too cold like we in the Windy City
And although I have regrets, I hold 'em all dearly
Cause if nothing shaped me up, it was the times I was fearin'

Sometimes I be pained on the pain of my past dealings
But if I ain't go through what I did I wouldn't have been healin'
If I ain't know this pain I wouldn't have been feelin'
If I had had what I didn't I wouldn't be speakin'

Oh, I hate me and all the things I know about me
But I can't take back what I've done and I've seen
So I can only flip it and grow up that's my routine
Oh, I hate me and all the things I know about me
But I can't take back what I've done and I've seen
So I can only flip it and grow up that's my routine

So I keep my head up
I'm gon' heat this bread up
I'm gon' turn the temp up, and I'ma set my bed up
'Cause I ain't sleepin' until all my family fed up
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