Joy (Guilt)

I don't want to be idolised
I want to be the person that you see waste away
I want to be a character in the feature film
That slowly slithers away
And when I'm standing there, facing you
I want you to look at me and feel nothing
Because I am nobody
You feel something because of you
Not because of me
I hear what you say
You say I do?
I feel the emptiness of your shallow thoughts
That you create and expect me to do something with
Because the key to connection is designed by you
And the key to love is happiness
And happiness is found solely within yourself
Don't desire me
Desire you
Don't idolise me
Idolise you
Stop. Panic. Stop. Drive. Crash. Die. Stop. Start.
Stop. Panic. Stop. Drive. Crash. Die. Stop. Start
Guilt
Guilt
I want to be sad and I want to be sad with you
I enjoy the unattainable goal
I'd take someone I love to the Andes
Just so I wouldn't have to explain it to them
We could experience it together
The greater that made itself
And what could I do with anyone
If I couldn't protect myself
And there's reasons why I can't tell you everything
It stems from parts of myself
And you should listen to the silence
Listen to your silence
Oh go on I'll give it a go
Pass me that silly book
I wish this road would last forever
I turn the headlights off
So I can't see the double lines
I'm driving forever
I'm fogging up the windows
I'm stirring in the guts
It's raining on my shoulders
And there's coffee in this cup
Stop. Panic. Stop. Drive. Crash. Die. Stop. Start.
Stop. Panic. Stop. Drive. Crash. Die. Stop. Start.
Guilt
Guilt
Hell bent on taking it Life
Hell bent on taking it Life
Guilt Guilt