Philosophy Of A Window

Coming to my senses I finally realize
All the things down the line, I didn't do 'em right
Put myself in the first place, that was a good thing
But getting struck by guilt if I didn't think
About other mortal souls
I persisted in trying but I saw no results
Giving out the assistance I needed months ago uh
(months ago uh, months ago uh)
Stare at the sun thinking bout what I've been through
Starting the summer, receiving what I was meant to get
Cause of good karma
It's freedom, affection and whole lotta
Sunshine when I look at the clouds
I gotta admit I was kinda surprised
I never felt the sun rays on my skin in a while
Then my phone rang
Remember that night
Caught me unprepared and I didn't know it could change my life
In that moment my vision's color changed
Light Blue in my iris see the world with new eyes
The irony is that I was never that type of guy
Eternal Sunshine, don't get it twisted, you can try
Just don't abuse of good luck like I did y'all
Like getting a paycheck and spendin' it all
Instead keep that bread safe because that's what life is offering
A lil mistake could happen, just don't go back to suffering, homie
That's real shit
Yea
Cuz like, imagine you're in a desert or whatever
And you've been starving for days
And you get the luck to find like an antelope
At the edge of your life
And you decide to eat it all in one day
Next days, all animals are gone
You'll eventually starve and die
You could fly
Or you could die
It's on you
You decide
Back when a pandemic stopped the earth's rotation
We've seen doors close, shook by the situation
The whole nation was locked up
Fucking apocalypse
Hope it's not eternal cause my youth might be just fucked up
It's all it is
I'mma keep my family safe
Cuz it's the only thing that matters in that state
Can't change
I'm watching all things degrate, deteriorate from my window
Market's crashing and corpses
Hope we get better for a little
But I still live my life at home
I'm not sad, I'm just so fucking bored
But if I think of people that can't even go to work
I'm grateful that my mother's attic rent pays off
But never saw it from the other perspective, until then
My tenants at a certain degree, they couldn't pay the rent
Stopped working, lost all money in a flash
From serving dagwood to eating rat food
That's just sad
Dejected
Like a pilot screaming "mayday"
Shipwrecked
Left all our dreams on the main deck
Mold scent when we entered for the eventual paycheck
Couldn't even describe how low their ego stayed at
As much as he tried to resist
The rope tightened too much, the blood, it spilled on his fist
Suicidal, left the shot, fell to his knees
Then he fell to his death
It's crazy to think
The same window that saw the little me having a bath
Made a grown man's life end, jumping off that
4th floor, the body couldn't resist the height
Face straight to the cement, he still was alive
Those walking by tryna keep him from dropping
The garage gate was closed, no presence could stop him
My best friend almost fainted, he witnessed the falling
Panic diffusing, there was nobody left for calling
Emergency arrived, immediately they headed to
The hospital, went through, there was nothing that they could do
To keep that boy alive
Cause he already died
And when the news arrived
I was gonna die too
I felt nauseous
I felt the gravity and thanked that I was still conscious
Left a remarkable scar on my skin
Since then I've been real cautious with my thoughts
Can't deny I learned a big lesson through the process
Never understimate yourself, you can dream big
You just gotta love everyone, soul's worth redeeming
Find joy and pleasure in your mind, in your passion
As long as you find shelter, homie, you don't need a mansion
Accept the fact that happiness comes in fews
Live by it, everyday, get used, no excuse
So fly out of that window and don't get your dreams shattered
I want you to fly high, touch the sky, don't get splattered