Washing My Eyes

If my eyes are like the windows
To my very living soul
Then mine haven't been cleaned
In the past few years or so
And I can't sleep at night
Because my prayers are eating me
And I wanna fall through the floor
And disappear forever
But if I fall through the floor
I'll be around all the thoughts
Of others

And I don't want that

So if you cut off my head
You'll see different beetles and dark thoughts
Cause my mind is pins and needles
And we all wish we could be more than we are boy
Today I've seen the sun twice
So hopefully ill see
The moon soon

Flip the light switch on and off
To check for monsters in my bones
Cause I feel like I hear certain different roles
An I got a fake peace sign over my head and my heart
And I know it can change its what I'm told

I'll run forever

So if you cut off my head
You'll see different beetles and dark thoughts
Cause my mind is pins and needles
And we all wish we could be more than we are boy
Today I've seen the sun twice
So hopefully ill see
The moon soon

Why oh why
Is the room spinning?
My oh my
I can hear my grave coming
And I don't wanna leave you alone
The others feel like unfulfilling options
(I know)
(When I'm in the ocean)

When I'm in the ocean I rub my eyes and it burns so bad

But not like this
I see hearts that hurt inlined with pain I'm just the same
I am no different

So if you
Cut
Off
My
Head
I hope you see beetles and dark thoughts

I'm lying, I'm lying, I'm lying
To you I'm not okay
I'm trying, I'm trying, I'm trying

No