Imminent

It's days like this where I don't want no one approaching me
Leave me alone man I just wanna buy some groceries
Lost inside my thoughts tryna write some poetry
I take a knee start to pray grab my rosary
Beads of sweat man I know I'm a mess
Do I want this career because I feel like I've guessed
Everysingle path of the journey and ended up in distress?
My beacon of hope it is failing and my sanity's next
Who am I, Who am I?
They all ask, who are you?
I reply, just a guy
Tryna find a peace of mind
Let me know, if it comes through yeah
Who am I, who am I?
I dunno just arrived
Let me decide yeah
Who am I, who am I?
Maybe one day I will find out why
I got pain inside
Feeling lost I can't find my way
Searching for that mindset to change
Everytime I write it feels the same
Working, not hard enough to obtain
Recognition I want, it's strange
Old me wouldn't like me these days
Still driven but not aiming straight
Feeling like I'm stuck in a cage

What will you gonna do when the thoughts you hate change you?
Will you ever stand up put a knife to it's throat be a man they say
I don't know what that means but I'm not gonna give up hope
It's easy to see those lows
Then you get involved with the drama that becomes karma
Then it gets harder cause the finish lines farther away
I just wanna have a song that resonates
With people, maybe have it on replay
Then again everyone calls it early days
Staying up all night try find a rhyme that's great
I never find anything with weight
I bang my head until it aches
Scream and shout till I finally fall asleep and it fades away

For forty days and nights
I travelled through my mind
Didn't like what I had to find
Now I see the path I'm on that leads to my final demise yeah
Feeling convicted little bit distant
Fall to addiction tormented by the things that you wanna have in life
Walk away from God cause I'm not that Christian
Don't wanna listen
You wanna tell God it's not your business
That's why I'm lost
I push him away and seek recognition
Is it good, is it right?
Already know, already made your mind
But inside your heart beats no
And deep down you know where to go
Take a stand for something
If you don't do that then you ain't worth nothing
I wanna look back I wanna be proud
I wanna say man did it myself
Running towards the danger
Something many never do I'm too crazy
Like that ever since a baby
In my toddler shoes cause none could tame me
I ain't changing
My parents tell me why aren't you ageing?
Done explaining some things are better left alone to me
Cause I see my dream and how it's shaping
If you're not onboard, why you here?
Don't like my stuff don't care
I'm aware I get compared

How many people you know can kill it like me?
How many people you know can make a beat for a symphony?
Who is the man? Man it is me
Not tryna boast It's time to see
I am the one aiming the gun making these beats boom
I'm moving at light speed
I got buzz on my phone man it's likely
Wanna offer me a deal I politely
Tell em nicely it unlikely that you're ever gonna get a deal with me
Be real with me none of you appeal to me
You feeling me? woo
Man I didn't think so
By the way you keep forgetting what I say
So leave me alone