H.O.P.E. (feat. Haben)

I'm tired of feeling so hopeless
I'm tired of going through the motions
I'm waiting for the day it's all gone' end
Show me the way
Show me the way out
Is there a way?
I'm tired of feeling so hopeless

Social anxiety from a broken society
My appearance invincible but I'm torn up inside of me
The introverted
Introspective
At times I'm insecure but still we learned that
A dream deferred is not a dream deserted
You tell yourself "it's not that bad", it really is
Tryna filter like u feed 'em a selfie
You been tryna bury these burdens so deep it's unhealthy
Just cuz you carry it so well don't mean it ain't heavy yeah
I used to think that suicide's for the weak and the selfish
I used to think depression's not a disease in itself cuz
I used to underestimate the darkness
In the mind of a person that's hurting
With self hatred and feeling helpless
I knew this girl that had witnessed
Her closest friend get murdered by her boyfriend
A lost soul at the cross roads
Just a teen full of big dreams now her heart cold
Forever stained by the ink of this dark soul
So now she traumatized in her mind
And she feeling like she stuck in chains
So she looking for something to numb the pain
And you can tell by the needle marks all across her arms
She gradually graduated to letting go of God
Her father found out but it seems like he don't give a shit
It's been some years now and he starting to get sick of it
To say his daughter is a fucking junkie, face it
At night he tries escaping reality till he's wasted
So now her mother took a second job never off
She be working late every single day she exhausted
She gives her own daughter the money to go buy the heron
Just so she won't be out in these streets selling her body
Or selling her soul
But she enables her in spite though
Trapped in this vicious cycle
That's the devil's disciple
They hate it when I say it but I love 'em
Cuz the mother is my auntie the addict's my little cusin
True story

I'm tired of feeling so hopeless
I'm tired of going through the motions
I'm waiting for the day it's all gone' end
Show me the way
Show me the way out
Is there a way?
I'm tired of feeling so hopeless

Hold On Pain Ends
Hold On Pain Ends
I don't feel like there's any way out
But I still hold on cuz I know pain ends
Hold On Pain Ends
Hold On Pain Ends
I don't feel like there's any way out
But I still hold on cuz I know pain ends

Social anxiety from a broken society
My appearance invincible but I'm torn up inside of me
I never been the type to start questioning God but see
This shit just really don't make sense honestly
Cuz he been coming to my shows since he was only ten
Dragged along his mother, his aunty, I start to notice them
Show after show, year after year, the lil' homie was there
Sometimes i ain't had no crowd it was only them
So naturally we start to grow as friends
From my biggest fan to my fam
I really seen him grow up since
From a teen to young adult to a future doctor
You made your mama so proud king, who can stop ya!?
But then we heard about the cancer in your brain
You in your early twenties, this shit madness it's insane
But you fought it like a soldier that's in battle through the rain
Only child to a single mother, imagine what a pain

That your mama go through
Anna baby, we love you
He was your angel on this earth now the angel above you
But now we suffocate with hurt and this pain we succumb to
Man how you gon' die right before my career take off
Cuz we finally made it dawg you can smile my boy
Josh we did a song with Nas my boy
Wish you came along on this ride my boy
Could've never done it without you, on God my boy
Was asked to perform at your funeral I couldn't do it
I'm tryna hold my composure not even show no emotion
But really homie I'm broken
Some people say the tumor must be from the vaccination
Some people say you was too healthy how that cancer came in
All I know my heart bleeding like a laceration
Deep inside I'm badly aching
And this wound never gon' heal
I'll never know how you deal
Hope it will get easier may God grant you patience
Just hold on

I'm tired of feeling so hopeless
I'm tired of going through the motions
I'm waiting for the day it's all gone' end
Show me the way
Show me the way out
Is there a way?
I'm tired of feeling so hopeless

Hold On Pain Ends
Hold On Pain Ends
I don't feel like there's any way out
But I still hold on cuz I know pain ends
Hold On Pain Ends
Hold On Pain Ends
I don't feel like there's any way out
But I still hold on cuz I know pain ends