Boy's Don't Cry... Men Do

Let's take it back guess it started as a kid
I was in the din grandpa told me it's ok to cry but he never did
I knew he was coping through a lot
I was on the carpet playing with my toys as he talked
Said if you feel them coming
Let them out don't hold them in
Friends were telling me the opposite
Wheather you skinned your knee
Or heard about your friend dying
It don't matter manhoods gone if you're caught crying
Got accustomed to being hurt
Accustomed to holding back my emotions within my shirt
Stacked them upon my heart
And all the times I did open up still got burnt
So I learned from them mistakes don't open up you'll get hurt
And when your told as a child you're was to emotional
Don't cry right now you're being way to loud
Acting like a girl get him a dress take his crown
Guess I'm not a real man once them tears come out so

If you're gonna break my heart
I'm better off
I'm better off on my own
If you're gonna break my heart
I'm better off
Better off
I'm better off

If you're gonna break my heart
Then please do it quick
I got places to go I'm stuck inside my routine
I haven't cried since Ben died in 2016
I like doing the same things so I don't have to think
Or let my mind wonder to my emotions
That shows the chink in my armor
That makes me more mad just adding fuel to the fire
Watch the cycle repeat bringing me farther down
If you're gonna break my heart
Then don't tell me I'm weak
Don't tell me I'm worthless
Or that my manhood is cheep
Or that I'm wrong for walking in the shoes that's on my feet
I already know I'm not perfect you don't have to remind me
You don't have to push the issue and act like I'm not trying
To be better
I don't even know what I'm supposed be
Haven't felt like a man since I was touched in elementary

If you're gonna break my heart
I'm better off
I'm better off on my own
If you're gonna break my heart
I'm better off
Better off
I'm better off
Alone

I don't know if your love is free
So I don't want you to wait for me
Oh nah nah nah
Oh nah nah nah
I don't know if your love is free
So I don't want you to wait for me
Oh yeah yeah

Chest tightened
Not the same as it would if I would've bench pressed
I fight these drops more than my enemies
I fight these drops more than I fight for a consistent breath of air
Gasping but still no tears
From one boy to another that's considered a success
Jesus wept that doesn't matter they said
So strong yet still can't move the dam from my eyes
Has the stream dried up or have they forgot their every first action
This strong armor is really just plastic
Chest tightened
Not the same as it would if I would've bench pressed
I fight these drops more than my enemies
I fight these drops more than I fight for a consistent breath of air
Gasping but so many tears
From one man to another that's considered a success
Jesus wept they said that's our guide
So weak but God moved the dam from my eyes
The stream isn't dry
They remembered their first cry
Bathed in the light of a hospitals abstraction
This strong armor held together by tears grafted
Real men weep