The Fog

Creeping in, it's creeping in, I feel it
It's eating me in pieces, will I heal from this?
Feels like I'm running on empty
Why is the fog so heavy?
Feeding me the sweet release of hell if
The evil wins I'm feeling like I might give in
My only peace is manic
Why is the fog so heavy again?

Tell me that we're not designed to die
Make believe we'll never see the light
Somewhere between awake and dreaming, I'm afraid to leave
But I see the other side

Can't shake the feeling that it's taken me too far
Do you love me now? Will you love me when I'm gone?
I'm beggin'
I need a serotonin drip beneath my skull
I'm just a shell of the man that I once was
I'm nothing at all

Tell me that we're not designed to die
Make believe we'll never see the light
Somewhere between awake and dreaming I'm afraid to leave
But I see the other side

Cause I'm pre-disposed to torture
Never meant to make it through
Why did it have to end up this way?
If only I knew

Can't see through cloud inside my head
Sifting through symptoms until I'm buried again
Maybe I'm not built for gold
My blueprints show I'm flesh and bone
I'm drunk and cold and all alone
In a room full of everyone I know

My mind and body went to war and my mind won