Beyond the Dusk

It's hard to think when I don't sleep
It's hard to see
It's hard to keep up with the pace of things
When I'm always just racing my tongue
And I've broken my lungs
I breathe, the helium seeps
Away from me, away it seems I'm loved
My mind do not agree
She says I better run before the
Gun of gravity gets me
They're all against me
Once I'd thought I'd won
But it was just a figment of my mind
I thought the war was done
But it was just beginning
Give my life up for the holy drug
But now my head is spinning
I made a deal, the gods above
Said I could have a minute in the light
But now my time is up
And the night is always darkest after dusk

Lord I wanna know
What must I endure
Before I can come back home
Mama do you know
What trouble is for
Don't make me face it on my own

Lord I wanna know
What must I endure
Before I can come back home
Oh Mama do you know
What trouble is for
Don't make me face it on my own

I cannot show my face they'll know
My achy bones about to blow up
(with the rest of the world)
I cannot keep playing pretend
If we're gonna defend the sins
The agony wins
It never ends
And yes I tend
To magnify, I must ascend
If imma get above
I better love the bullet holes that kiss me
Space it fills me
Tell me anyone
Is there a plan to kill me?
Can I escape it if I run?
Or will the stars reveal me
And glimmer as I come undone
I hear the voices singing in the light
They say my time is up
And the night is always darkest after dusk

Lord I wanna know
What must I endure
Before I can come back home
Mama do you know
What trouble is for
Don't make me face it on my own

Lord I wanna know
What must I endure
Before I can come back home
Mama do you know
What trouble is for
Don't make me face it on my own

I've heard the night is darkest just beyond the dusk
I have not seen it before
But I have seen the souls crushed
I will not go down fighting
I will not start inciting, cut my ties, and end up hiding
I know you're there, I hope it's not too late to start rewriting
I heard the night is always darkest after dusk
But I have closed my eyes in dark I trust

Lord I wanna know
What must I endure
Before I can come back home
Mama do you know
What trouble is for
Don't make me face it on my own

Lord I wanna know
What must I endure
Before I can come back home
Oh Mama do you know
What trouble is for
Don't make me face it on my own

Lord I wanna know what must I endure
Oh Mama do you know what trouble is for
I wanna go home