Baby Boy

I'm in pain, things will never ever be the same
Memories are flooding through my brain
Peace of mind, not something I'll obtain
Sober thoughts, I've all but abstained
My little baby boy you were the world
My confidence is starting to unfurl
Million dollars you were more than gold
Twelve years past when we first met
Gift from a stranger, just a new pet
A moment I could never dare forget
Tiny little thing but so defiant
Standing on the shoulders of giants
Still in the gutter, life was turbulent
With your older brother you were guided
Carry on his spirit, you survived it
So many people that we both met
Your personality could never upset
Smart little guy, we were a duet
But I'm solo now, how will I do it
Life ain't the same without you
Panicking, got me feeling doubtful
Emotional support, you were my go to
Go against the world, it was just us two

But now you've gone on
Knew this day would come
And I'm trying
Trying to be strong
Called out to God
To take you in his arms
Even though
We ain't talk in so long
Dedicate this song
To our unspoken bond
Now I'm numb
You were too wholesome
No conditions
Behind all your love
So please send
It from up above

My sweet baby boy you were the world
I miss you every minute of each day
Stagnant, is this grief for me to stay
In my own sorrow where I lay
So many things left for me to say
Looking for the strength to convey
How I feel entering this phase
Memories, regrets, in a haze
Emotions got me trapped in a maze
The first and last face of everyday
It's gonna take so long to adjust
The only one I could truly trust
I only get to see you in my dreams
Pained to know you'll miss out many things
I gotta keep moving like a stream
But I loved you more than anything