I'll Paint a Picture

I've never had much self control
And now there's little of it left
I wonder aloud if what I'm doing is real
And I'm afraid of the answer I get

It's all real
But the feelings aren't exact
It's nothing I haven't survived
But I feel quite a bit more intact

So I'll paint a picture of your face
Just to feel like I have something of you
And I'll think about dyeing my hair
In the same way that you do

I've never had much self control
I pierce my ears for fun
With no good reason that I know of
But when I'm bored, it gets the job done

But this is real
Unlike some of the things I've seen
So should I let this happen?
And say all the things I mean

So I'll paint a picture of your face
Just to feel like I have something of you
And I'll think about dyeing my hair
In the same way that you do

Because I'm not sure
How I'm supposed to be feeling
But I can guarantee that you're on my mind

And even though
I just want to be like you
I don't think it hurts to want to hold your hand

So I'll paint a picture of your face
Just to feel like I have something of you
And I'll think about dyeing my hair
In the same way that you do

So I'll paint a picture of your face
Just to feel like I have something of you
And I'll think about dyeing my hair
And change the way I dress to be more like you

I'll dress in a way that reminds me of you