Heart On a Shelf

In the skys all the time
Cause some people just want me to die
I just want to go up it and fly
Just for talking on brodie I swear you gone
Die

I remember them days you was here
Everyday I be shedding them tears
Swear to god I ain't living in fear
I been praying like this is my year

All alone like this shit tragic
Reminiscing and shit
The thoughts in my head got me feeling sick
So I rap on these beats tryna make a hit

The money my passion
On the road no I ain't crashing
Met this girl and she like my rapping
Now I gotta beat it like I'm Micheal Jackson

Damn
Sometimes I just be feeling like I got nobody everybody done switched
But it's okay I got my family
We going up you heard
All my brothers

Heart cold I don't know how to cope with my stress
I be feeling like this shit a test
When I'm down I be holding my chest
Remember them days when my father done left

But it's okay
Make me stronger when you went away
You said you love me but I think it's fake
I love you but the same time I hate

You know that I miss you
This shit hurt it feel like a missile
I been crying like I need a tissue
I needed to say it I ain't mean to diss you

I been to quiet for a while
All this pain I don't know how to smile
This a message I hope it is loud
Swear to god hope you feel like a clown

You left me in that water I almost drowned
You was my idol don't know about now
I don't know you live with yourself
You saying you love me that shit never helped

So I just put my heart on a shelf
And I put my feeling in a bag
So I could just stop feeling sad
I just wanted a mom and a dad