Die Alone (Part 2)

I don't want to feel like this
I don't want to go through this
I just want to get this voice out of my head
Don't got a cure for this
It's strong but I must resist
It says I'll walk this road alone until I'm dead
You gon die
You gon die
You gon die
You gonna die alone
You gon die
You gon die
You gon die
You gonna die alone

I was hoping that I would look back on this poem
And treat it as part of the past
Couple of years since my demons were pressing me
Death is approaching me fast
How can I last when all of my fears have started turning to reality
Brush right over my scars
To feel the things that I am battling
I want my daddy to heal
I want my mama to travel and never be late on a bill
I love my sisters for real
Why is my sadness the only emotion I feel
Is it because I'm too focused on
Reaching the goals that I've set
And staying true to all that I've spoken on
I'm telling the truth
Whenever I step in the booth
If I'm writing or rapping, don't matter the subject
I only be thinking of you
That is a lie, I been alone
Like I don't even be charging my phone
I just be chilling with Kenny
He really the only one I know be hearing my songs
I'm thinking of wife, I'm thinking of kids
Life is an auction, I'm losing the bid
It's 1033, I can't let it go
Nurtured the garden, I know it'll grow
I'm taking the blame, for taking it slow
Enduring the pain, whenever it snow
It ain't the same, I been avoiding the change
This ain't what you wanted for Bo

I don't want to feel like this
I don't want to go through this
I just want to get this voice out of my head
Don't got a cure for this
It's strong but I must resist
It says I'll walk this road alone until I'm dead
You gon die
You gon die
You gon die
You gonna die alone
You gon die
You gon die
You gon die
You gonna die alone

I know my mama want some grands
But at least she understands this time
It's really in my hands but I'm scared I won't change in time
Funny how most of the women I like
Be liking the women I like too
Funny how all of my friends
Are probably my friends cause they on the mic too
Don't get it twisted
I could reach out more, and I really would like to
I know they love me, but something inside be saying I'm lied to
I hate how I feel
I know that it's real
It's never gon go away
If I make a deal
To dance with the devil
I'm throwing my soul away
I got better odds of telling my crushes
And having them feel the same
Even though I be laughing with people
Inside I'm starting to feel pain
I hate how I feel
I know that it's real
It's never gon go away
If I make a deal
To dance with the devil
I'm throwing my soul away
I got better odds of telling my crushes
And having them feel the same
Even though I be laughing with people
Inside I'm starting to feel pain

I won't die
I won't die
I won't die, I won't die alone
I won't die
I won't die
I won't die, I won't die alone
I don't want to feel like this
I don't want to go through this
I just want to get this voice out of my head
Don't got a cure for this
It's strong but I must resist
It says I'll walk this road alone until I'm dead
You gon die
You gon die
You gon die
You gonna die alone
You gon die
You gon die
You gon die
You gonna die alone