You

I hope I picked the right one
I hope you never want someone new
As you're wearing all black
And I wear out the words "I love you"
It's been a while
Since we've had a talk
The days go by like clockwork
And everything is so non-stop
Go back in time
Color the driveway with chalk
Like when we talked on your driveway
My heartbeat rose like a stock
Back when we used to rule the block
We always hung out together like a flock

Feels like I'm home alone because you're always gone
My thoughts hit even harder when the vodka is strong
My heart beats even faster than a ticking bomb
It's been weeks since I've really ever seen my mom
And I
Don't know what to do with myself
Figure out I'm gonna need some help
So I ask you
Do you really even love me
Are the words so worn out
You don't trust me anymore?
Like back in 10th grade when I opened that door
Just like when you start to ask for more and more
You said you'd rather have your face to the floor
Than be ignored, but still connected like a power cord

You said it was all my fault for sure
And you thought that you should leave before
I get too attached and become torn
And my heart starts to wash up on the shore
Our love was like the ocean but
I don't know what you were hoping for
When you get home you make an open cut
When I opened the door i saw blood on the floor