Texts I Would Send You If I Could

I wish I could've called you
When I walked home alone in the dark
Cause usually I would have
And we'd talk til I made it back
And I wouldn't be this scared
Walking up my dorm stairs
All alone
Tell me how's Chicago
How soon do you go back to school
Feels like I've been here for a year now
Call my mom each time I break down
Cause I wish that you would call me
But I know the probability is none

And I know that
It's gonna be fine
But it's cold here
And you're always on my mind

How was first semester
All your new friends seem really cool
I wonder if they've heard about me
If it's mostly pretty good things
Cause I've told all of my friends
I've given up on tryna get
Over you
And it's almost your birthday
Happy 19th to you
This is your first one without me
Since the both of us were 16
I know that's time just doing it's thing
But its been a bitch to you and me
Isn't that true

Oh and I know that
It's gonna be fine
But I'm so alone here
And you won't get out of my mind

And if I could
I'd send you
Every song I wrote for you
Just to make you cry
Is that a bad thing to think
And if I could
I'd call you
And tell you how much
I need you
Every night
That I have a little bit to drink

Cause I know that
It's gonna be fine
But I'm so alone here
And you won't get out of my mind
But I know that
It's gonna be fine
Cause I still love you
And you're always in my mind

I wish I could've called you
When I walked home alone in the dark
Cause usually I would have
And we'd talk til I made it back
And I wouldn't be this scared
Walking up my dorm stairs
All alone