Envy

Vengeance
All I see is revenge
Close your heart to it
Close your heart
Forgiveness
Gritting my broken teeth
Tell me which one is the peace of mind
Cut the shit, bitch
God is dead, freak
Blood will rain
When I will rise
The instrument of death will play
I won't be there
I won't be there

They say
Don't look back
But I like looking back
Reminds me of the progress I've made
Ambitions over perfection
I have progressed
Give a fuck
I'm not fucking here

Can't do fucking shit now
I am fucking stuck
Tryna connect my emotions to my work
I'm working tired
I'm working tired
Don't we all do that everyday?
I do everything I can, fuck
Forcing myself to that
I am getting sad, fuck
Can't do fucking shit, now
Tryna connect my emotions
But I am numb
Happy or not
Lost my ability to feel and express
I can't write shit
Searching in my head that is someplace else
Numb on rest days
Tearing my eyes out when I'm lifting weights
Hate being lazy lame fuck
Trying to connect them
Still fucking falling
I can't fucking stand it
So fucking hate it
I'm getting sleepy after 12 hours of sleep
My body wants me to die
But I wanna get the shit done

Wondering why I'm not there, yet
Might be something that I miss, here
Used to love doing that shit now I don't know

Okay, let's just fucking connect

I fucking miss you and I'm barely able to do shit
That I used to love
Singing bullshit about being independent
But I'm lying to myself to get through the fucking days
I hate everything around me but you
I hate every single soul around me but you
I just looked back
Now I can't escape
My teeth are fucking broken
Envious of your success
Envious of your friends
Envious of your love
Envious of your shit
Envious of your place
Envious of your age
Environment, determination, family
Where you live
How you live
How you look
How you speak
Argh!
Fuck that shit
I do everything that I love
Still I can't do fucking shit
Fuck I should be grateful
The worse will come
But I won't expect it
Wish it could be my last song
Maybe then I would be happy
But it won't
I'm too envious
Fuck



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Writer(s): Gorn Gorn
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