Here I Am

My mom gave me life to God in '97
She had to ask God if I was ever gonna make it
She felt so scared, she had a lotta questions
Then God had to show her
What I looked like in her visions
And some years later and now that I'm here
It was by God's grace and my future so clear
I knew of a God I went to church a few times
As the years went by I had God on my mind
In 2012 I was in search for God's wisdom
On Malcolm X and 128th in Harlem
I meet these two women
Both claimed that they Mormons
As I heard them talking, I wasn't feeling it
A year later my dad took me to his church
Tryna get what the preacher
Was saying with these verse
But nowhere in sight did I feel God's urge
So since that day
I stopped going to their services

Here I Am, Lord
I know you're listening
I'm thinking about life
And I'm here questioning
All of those things that I had to go through
At the end of it all it lead me to you
Here I Am, Lord, I heard you got plans
You mapped out my life in the palms on your hands
And through these pitfalls
It was hard to comprehend
But I've made it here to you so Lord, here I am

2014 is when I gave my life to God
I thought it was easy but it got pretty hard
I was going to school, all these kids would tease me
They didn't like what I've said or the things I believe
My mind gone racing, they driving me crazy
Walking down the hall asking God for some peace
I went to Brooklyn Tab in 2015
Try to be around more kids who were just like me
Over time, yeah I grew in my faith
Finally felt like I was seeing some change
I had sunny moments, sometimes I felt rain
When I was down and out God came in with the save
Now a little older, in a new mind state
Yeah I'm confident, but at times I'm afraid
I look at this world and how it operates
While tryna understand the price that Jesus paid

Here I Am, Lord
I know you're listening
I'm thinking about life
And I'm here questioning
All of those things that I had to go through
At the end of it all it lead me to you
Here I Am, Lord, I heard you got plans
You mapped out my life in the palms on your hands
Through these pitfalls
It was hard to comprehend
But I've made it here to you so Lord, here I am

It wasn't till now that I got the assignment
You have God's peace and you'll be in his alignment
I've made it thus far, stood firm in my lowest
I'm only still standing I've been clinging on to Jesus
He was there for me
When I was chilling in my goodness
He was there for me
When I was tryna be better
He was there for me
When I was feeling so hopeless
He was there for me
When I was dealing with my anger
Those the many time that I've clashed with the waves
And even oftentimes, didn't always get my way
I felt like Moses when I struggled with my speech
I felt like David when folks overlooked me
Didn't look like the part at all but God used me
My path were crooked
But he made them straight for me
You listen to this song, you hear this testimony
Of a kid who was saved and changed for God's Glory

Here I Am, Lord
I know you're listening
I'm thinking about life
And I'm here questioning
All of those things that I had to go through
At the end of it all it lead me to you
Here I Am, Lord, I heard you got plans
You mapped out my life in the palms on your hands
Through these pitfalls it was hard to comprehend
But I've made it here to you so Lord, here I am

Hear I Am, Lord
I know you're listening
I'm thinking about life
And I'm here questioning
(questioning, questioning, questioning)
Here I Am, Lord, I heard you got plans
You mapped out my life in the palms on your hands
(your hands, your hands, your hands)